| pleasing myself never got so easy |
[14 Sep 2009|01:47am] |
There is this domestic streak in me that is screaming to let loose this raya but all factors are against this idea:
1) the oven is not working. the oven!
2) schoolwork seems to be a alot alot more!
3) i have MS matters to attend to quite frequently
4) my mum is not planning to cook any grand/typical raya dish, she's going with simple and delish chicken rice (undomesticity is hereditary i tell you)
...some great conspiracy theory i must say
to make light of it, my sister and I have found nonbake recipes for cheesecakes and cornflakes cookies (first time making cornflakes cookies hahaha) and we're willing to give them a try just because they're our favourites. i do feel sad seeing my friends and A getting excited baking and cleaning their houses for raya (we were this close to getting a weekend maid to do the cleaning, yes that kind of sloths we are) while my house looks pretty much the same and doesn't waft of cookies this year. looking on the positive side and what i learned from the tazkirah session yesterday, some things you can do without and i don't think i need all the hassle at all. there are no screaming at each other in the house this year, because no one is frustrated her cookies turned out wrong or her rendang is burnt, and no one is tired from cleaning the house FULL of junk we didn't even notice.
okay, i'm appeased (:
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| "i love you" "i love you more!" "no i love you more!" "okay equal!" |
[29 Aug 2009|02:14am] |
"no, seriously. i am never one to believe that two can exude equal feelings towards each other. women being more expressive, it seems we love men more than they love us. it gets tiring to say i love you or i miss you first and you just get a "_____ too" in return. but in my previous relationship, my partner loved me more than i do. i finally understand why he got so frustrated when he expresses so much more than i do. it's a matter of the person you're in love with. if he loves you more, good for you. if you love him more, at least he loves you"
the proof of the pudding is in the eating, but in this case i'd rather not eat it at all.
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| which of His favours would you deny? |
[27 Aug 2009|12:10am] |
during my driving lesson just now we passed by the bazaar and the lights were soo blinding that i almost beat the red light. my instructor said "oiyoooo oiyooooo girl can go jail leh!" HAHA. i felt amost shell-shocked lol. after that, i got my period hahhahaa.
it's alot of toll on me being in the committee because firstly, i don't have hall and secondly, i feel really inferior towards the other committee members. they just seem up there already and im slowly crawling my way up. as much as they are really not judging me but helping me instead, i still feel inadequate as a Muslim and inadvertently, as a committee member. i mean i know receiving Hidayah is hak Allah, but i also feel that i should do something about myself. it's the same concept as practicing what you preach, just that i don't really preach, you know?
and the thing about not having hall is pretty worrying because meetings will obviously last till late and A will always insist on waiting for me even when his classes start early the next day and mine doesn't. It is of course about being sweet and concerned on his part but the guilt trip for me is just huge. i end meetings really late like till ten thirty and by the time he sends me home it'll be eleven and midnight-ish when he reaches his. im guessing he doesnt bathe and wash up so he sleeps at one, if he does he'll sleep at one thirty then he has to wake up by six and now that it's Ramadhan, even earlier for sahur. he rides to school in the early morning and we all know how harsh the singapore roads are towards bikes :( I'm really thankful to have someone being worried about me so should i just stop feeling bad and accept his offers shamefully?:p i think i should, since i really miss spending quality time with him :( i don't even see my friends now, i seem to have alot to do. omg so much complaints no good no good!
k listen to this! it's food for the soul truly:
p.s: anyone has contacts to air kathirah suppliers?
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| HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA |
[05 Aug 2009|07:23pm] |
omg i cannot stand this! it's maghrib but i'm laughing over this friends' episode omg!
ross: i went to the tanning place that your wife suggested and look what happened to me! i got four-twos at the front and none at the back!
chandler: was that place.. THE SUN? omg you can do a duet of ebony and ivory all by yourself
i love stupid jokes i really do hahahahahahhaaha
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| FAT |
[03 Aug 2009|10:00pm] |
hal and liylow came over to my house just now. and you bet, the initial plan to swim and sweat ourselves out in the sauna came to a nought with the reason that 2 out of 3 of us had our periods. hahaha. malas cakap ajelah. but we had fun and attempted to watch a movie for the second time. BUT WE SLEPT. all three of us. so anyway other than that we ate and ate. i feel super guilty for eating so much. ): i hate to feel heavy arghhhh. weight issues. okay so anyway, i've just finished writing an article in malay i hope it's satisfactory! k watch this video. it's really out of this world.
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[29 Jul 2009|04:53pm] |
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when two people kiss, one always has to lean towards his partner more than the other
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| after five. |
[29 Jul 2009|04:10pm] |
yesterday, i had driving at 11am but i waited for 30mins to find him nowhere near the pick-up point. i called him so many times but his phone was switched off. in the end, i smsed him saying: "cik *****, nurul here. saya sudah sampai dari pukul 11, dan telephone cik ***** dimatikan..saya rsa cik ***** lagi mengajar. saya tidak dapat tunggu kerana saya ada urusan selepas ini. harap maaf" he called me at 12.40 and another time at night. i didn't answer :( not being responsible i know :s
well the thing about my instructor is that he's more than experienced in teaching and has reputable testimonials. on my first day, i really liked him and he was really funny. then, i got stupid and slow. i think he became impatient or he expected too much from me since the first lesson was a breeze. i used to joke about him mistaking me with another of his student but this also means he has too many students to handle so much so that his schedules get mixed up sometimes too. well anyways i just feel bad for missing his calls. i hope he doesn't hold it against me if i switch instructors :s if it makes me feel better, i have to scour for another instructor and pay another sum of enrolment fee to this other person. from his vantage point, he has nothing to lose. i still feel bad though.
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| not my best |
[19 Jul 2009|02:12pm] |
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don't people get tired over haggling with themselves about who to meet today, and who to meet two hours later, who to meet tomorrow, and who to meet next weekend? i honestly honestly am :( tuition is definitely taking up the bulk of my time, not that i tutor for whole days, but the timing is soo off. i always have to decline dinner offers because i've to tutor from 6 to 10pm. and if my friends meet up at 3-ish, i'd rather not come since i have to leave after about 1 to 2 hours anyway. hope this is just for july, but i do enjoy being alone quite a bit. oh brother//
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| 'if i have the time, anywhere in sg for you' |
[07 Jun 2009|09:38pm] |
been busy with a capital 'b'. meet-ups with A last mostly throughout the journey...home, and sometimes for 15 minutes more of talking and just keeping quiet and enjoying each others' company. and i think he's better at making the best out of it then i am- the rose, the oldchangkee, the green tea, just basically traveling all the way from simei to school to fetch me and back to kembangan and back to simei is no joke. he comes to school just to send me back home. on friday night we missed a movie because i ended late :o
suppers with friends are about an hour long land then i look forward to go home only to sleep. secretly i think my family is annoyed and it doesn't help that my phone bills skyrocketed :( but today i fried some crackers that i bought from perhentian island so i hope when they come home later they will be appeased. haha.
well anyways im off to snooky in a week's time and the amount of work i have to do before that is not doing justice to the time i get to spend with A and friends and family. not complaining or whatsoever coz no one forced me into this and im loving every minute i have with the spectrans. and time, well don't we always wish we had more of that.
 my eyebags are larger than my eyes (seriously go and measure) in this photo but who cares ((:
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